Would that relationships were easier than they are, or that parents were perfect and taught children perfect relationship skills. Alas, this life is all about falling on your face, picking yourself up and looking yourself in the mirror to figure out what went wrong. When it comes to words, I’ve always had more than enough, and used them to my advantage – until it’s a disadvantage. The love of my life would endearingly say that I had all of the words, all of the time, and a mentor at work called me a “wordsmith”, which was the greatest compliment I could’ve received. And yet, oftentimes my words are sent out as a desperate plea into an empty void, and as such, they fall flat. The accuracy which which I can convey my message is both a gift and a curse, depending on the situation and the level of Scorpio passion and impulse control I throw into my message and timing. But there’s more to consider:

When the rate of communication is imbalanced, both parties need to look within and determine what is driving their action or inaction.

This is healthy. This is love. This is mindful intent within a relationship.

Nikki Jensen

I believe in manifestation: that if we focus on what we desire, believing that we’ll receive it, and act accordingly, it will come into our lives. Over the past few years I’ve been trying to understand the communication dynamics within different relationships in my life. Yesterday I came across an article that unfolded the answer. Thank you, Psychology Today!

One of the most common and destructive of these conflict patterns happens when one partner continuously withholds and the other similarly concedes. “Withholders” keep their thoughts and feelings hidden during a conflict, while “conceders” too quickly reveal them.
Which Are You?

Withholders vs. Conceders: a world apart doesn’t have to mean the end of the romance……

After sadness runs us through,

after love stretched across a life,

beyond the borderlines they draw

we see birth again.

First born to bird song, I knew nothing

of the language you were

fluent in. You, born to bomb sounds

and wars that chased you,

a decade of words I’d never heard,

me of some soft blowing breeze

and the curtains it played with.

Immeasurable, I call the dust from stars

that fills us despite this,

call it indescribable that somehow

mine is yours and yours is mine

and neither a galaxy of distance

nor the din of explosion

stopped it from being shared

between us.

Did you know when I knew,

from the outset, from the birth

of new beginning,

did you see me and call out Home

in that first language I could not


Started half a globe apart,

serenaded by such separate sounds,

but now, stillness,

and poetry that finally

makes sense.

Tyler Knott Gregson

(Check this fantastic writer out. I’ve followed him for sometime and his words always move me.)

The end only comes when the pattern wounds to the point that repair cannot be made.

Regardless of how much love is in your heart for your partner, there may come a point when the pain overshadows the love. The best course of action is to look at these communication mistakes early and identify where you’ve seen these patterns in your past, then work to alleviate them from your current relationship – or better yet, tackle the issue and identify your triggers before you’re in a romantic partnership, and when you identify unhealthy patterns in that relationship, try to overcome them, or walk away before you sacrifice hard earned health.

Above all else, listen to your intuition when walking along your journey of life.

You are the only person who will always be there to look out for you.

Trust yourself first.

Nikki Jensen
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